“Don’t Let Your Past Hurt Change The Beauty of You” those are the words my therapist spoke to me one day during our session. You have to understand Jessica’s story before you can see the beauty I, Kelly Jé is learning to love.
Experiencing my parent’s divorce was a twisted turn of events in life for me. I lost my best friend, my big mama passed away and now I was going from a two parent home down to a one. I spent Wednesdays and every other weekend with my dad. After moving from the only home I have ever known, my mom moved us into some apartments. They by far wasn’t the safest, but she did the best she could with what she had.
I went from being around my friends from school to now having to make new friends. When I decided to move with my dad, I had to relocate and change schools. I didn’t fit in with anyone from my new school. I was bullied a lot and felt there was no need for me to be around.
I didn’t see the beauty in me no more. I didn’t know my self worth. I started to believe I was prone to nothing but pain, hurt and brokenness. That no one would ever love me or even choose me first. If I’m being honest, even us "The Counsel" didn’t even want to choose Jessica first. She had been discarded so many times we just viewed her as damaged goods.
We believed that we were monsters, a horrible person. We believed love would never exist for us.
We believed that we would never be a first choice for people. We believed we would never heal ourselves.
We believed that we would forever be in this cycle of darkness.
Well now….
I don’t believe any of that negative talk… because that’s what it was... NEGATIVE TALK. I had to retrain my mind to believe and trust in myself. I retrain my to know my own self worth. I stopped looking at others for validation and started looking to my own self. This journey I am on to rediscovering who I am has been very empowering.
I have found my love singing again.. May only be car & shower concerts, but I am singing again. I have found my love for dancing again. I have found my love for writing again. I have found I love being at home and when I am ready to step out… I WILL STEP OUT!
I had to stop letting my past hurt determine the beauty in me and see that the beauty never left.
Always remember Don’t Let Your Past Hurt Change The Beauty of You!